Advent Retreat

Last night I went to an Advent retreat. It started with Mass in this beautiful old church out in the country. And the people there are really good singers, which I find particularly intimidating. They have even put out a CD which I love. After Mass we go over to where they are having the retreat. Now I am a much more opened-minded person than I used to be, but sometimes I just want to scream! It started out okay with some insightful ideas, but by the end we had Sister reading a story that ended with a version of the Magnificat while the other Sister danced it out. They talked a lot about entering into your self. Now, it is quite possible that most people are much holier than I (actually it is most likely that they are holier than I). The last place I want to go is into myself. I know what rotten things are in there already. I would rather spend my time entering into Christ and there are so many ways to do that. To be Christ-like aren't we supposed to go out of ourselves, empty ourselves so that Christ can make us holy? But, what do I know?